His Plan > My Plan

     That funny moment when you have your own agenda for your life and God does completely opposite of what you planned to happen. This seems to be a normal occurrence in my life and especially while on this trip.  Just when I think I got it planned out “perfectly” God throws a GIANT twist on the whole situation.

     Take this trip for example; I came here wanting to find MY calling and MY future plans, but the problem with that is they were MY plans not HIS. Those selfish reasons I had for coming on this trip weren’t wrong, but they were not aligned with God’s timing and plan. The good thing about God changing my plans for His plans is that His plans are perfect for me.

     So instead of me finding my calling on this trip, God decided that I first needed to find and embrace His love for me. I had to let Him have my heart completely and let Him romance me. I wasn’t too sure about this whole change of plans, but being the gentlemen that God is, He was patient with me, but still kept pursuing me. Even with ALL my stubbornness of wanting to figure out my calling, I knew God wouldn’t relent until He had it all.

     The best decision I could ever make was and is to let God romance my heart more and more each day. It has opened me up to having deeper conversations with Him and not being afraid. It’s provided me with this indescribable tingling in my bones, a new joy running deep through my veins; it’s this new excitement that I can’t put into words. I have a new trust that is fully relying on Him, and letting Him do whatever He sees fit with my life. He shows me daily new things about myself, my family, my future, and His desires for me. He just wants me to spend time with Him and have conversation with Him, not to overcomplicate things. As we spend time with God and learn His voice that is when He we can hear His voice more clearly for our calling.

     So for all those questions of “what are you doing after high school” or “what are your future plans” I still don’t have it all figure out. One thing I do have figured out is that I’ am madly and completely in love with Christ and the even more crazy thing is he loves me a billion times more than that. So for right now I ‘am going to sit back and love Christ and let Him plan my future.