Broken

Guatemala for less than a week and God is already breaking me. Proving to me that He is all we need and He is sufficient no matter what.

Serving comes natural to me and I thrive in the unknown, always ready for something unique and extraordinary to come my way. I thought that this trip would be just like the rest but I was extremely wrong. God has pushed me, taken me out of my comfort zone, and opened me eyes to the unthinkable. Not only are hearts being molded and changed in the people here, but my heart is also being broken and transformed.

My first ministry experience was going to the garbage dump to serve lunch. I was in complete shock, it was hard to believe that people actually lived there and called that place their home. I was frazzled, upset, and didn’t know what to do. My natural instincts kicked in, to busy myself and to find sonthing tangible to do. I realized in that moment that I was missing out on what God was doing becuase I was so distracted and He told me to just be present in the moment.

I immersed myslef in the situation, I looked around at all of the children in little to no clothes, the trash that filled the area, the smell that took your breath away but amongst all of this I saw smiling and grateful faces. I saw God’s creation, His children who are so extremely worthy, and I was reminded to let God use me in whatever way He wanted, and not to get caught up in the chaos. I began to talk to the families and two little girls caught my attention. They were grinning from ear to ear, so I walked over and they wanted to play ring around the rosy. Without hesitation, I joined them, grabbed their hands and skipped and sang. What an amazing moment to share amongst the dirtyness, filth, and horrible situation to be filled with so much joy and hope. God reminded me that this is what WE look like too, dirty and unclean, but through Him we are made clean and are renewed. What an amazing God we serve, He accepts us as we come, even though sometimes we are so ungrateful and so unworthy.