Unrequited Love

To define unrequited love is unreciprocated or returned in kind. This love is purely worldly and not to be anywhere near the throne or mere hem of the robe of Christ.
But, sadly this is what I fall into sometimes. I choose solace and solidarity apart from enjoyment of people's company. Now, this kind of love I have not practiced 100% here, but I have fallen into it. Especially when I have one of my emotional spats or I wake up groggy and not realizing that life is to be lived.

I was brought to such a vast realization of this when I wasn't releasing a friend of mine fully to the Father. I was letting a root of bitterness take it's defiling toll on my soul.



Let me give you some back story, we were in Tikal checking out the ruins. God gave me the word release while I was sitting on top of one of the many beautiful ruins there. I asked Him why and He said "Just wait".



What I went through during our bus ride to the hostel was one of the most emotional experiences I have probably had in my life. God's forgiveness and love for me is beyond anything I have ever felt and let me tell you I hope none of these thoughts of unrequited love upon any of you readers. Jesus' love is reciprocated and rejuvenates the soul.



His grace lavishes the waters of life in our souls. His forgiveness covers every last sin we've done. And His life is to be abundant and to be lived. I was cutting the Father off from actually fully loving me.



I was being blinded by the enemy by just saying "oh, this is just something I have to go through". Never tell that lie to yourself.



The sincere sensitivity God wants us to actually live in is something that is present and will overwhelm with a consistent heart of thanksgiving and praise. One last thing I will say. Am I 100% better? No, this is a process that God is taking me through and that I have to choose daily. The choice is to love and be loved and reciprocate that love, and the road that my flesh wants to take is to choose solace and solidarity.



I'm challenged to escape to the secret place daily to let the Presence of my Abba fill me with awe and wonder and let my soul be permeated to love my team here, and to love Him. "Abba, I belong to You."



The Father loves You. Jesus covered Your sins. I pray that tears well into my eyes every time I think of the true sacrifice Jesus made. I pray that the wellspring of my soul wells up and pours out praise whenever I think of the Jubilee I can daily take part in.



It's time to breathe in the Presence of God. It's time to love the people around you that God has blessed you with. It's time to drink deep this life that is but a breath. Believer, believe me, it's time to live and to live abundantly in the freedom that Jesus is ringing.



LET FREEDOM RING!