God’s faithfulness is so beyond my comprehension. I’ve been contemplating my life up to this point over the past couple of weeks, and many times it brings me to tears to realize exactly how God has been present for me and how he has worked on my behalf, even when I didn’t so much as acknowledge the fact that he was there. He has been SO faithful to me, even when I haven’t been at all faithful to him.

I am so undeserving of his Grace, and yet he chooses to lavish me with it. I am so unworthy of his unconditional Love, but still he freely pours it into my being. My faith is smaller than a mustard seed, but time and time again, he proves himself to me. So often, I avert my eyes from him, but he never lets me leave his sight. So often, I completely disregard the power of his Spirit, and for some reason I will never understand, he continues to use me.

“…Who am I that you are mindful of me, that you care for me? You made me a little lower than the heavenly beings and crowned me with glory and honor.” Psalm 8:4-5 (Courtney’s version)

I am so thankful. So blessed. It is the greatest honor to be pursued and wanted by the creator of the universe. He wants me. He wants to love me. He wants to delight in me. He wants to use me. He wants me to want him. I want him. I want to love him. I want to delight in him. I want to rely on him. I honestly want him.

Jesus, be my everything. Be all I ever desire.